Around Zion - a lonely cyclist


Wednesday, August 19, 2009

It's not the cause. It's only the effect and how you deal with it.

There are moments where you just don't know what to do with the information that's available to you, and how to process it positively and how to make some sense out of it. There are moments when you feel so alone that you could reach out to sky for some company. There are moments when love is not in sight, faith is redundant and xenophobia sets in. There are moments when you might discontinue your love for someone, your trust for someone, your whole existence for someone. but do NOT know how to discontinue or neglect the bond, the affection that took so many years to develop, and you are torn up between what is illusion and what is real.

The love, the trust, the caring, the intimacy all can be destroyed in a second if you really want to, but not the bond, the affection that grows slowly. That one hurts really bad while you slowly try to dissipate; not because you want to, but because you have to, or you can NOT move on. Life goes on and if we can't tally with life's oscillation, we will be so far behind that we can't even see the ending line. It's not like you are unhappy 'cos deep inside you know its what you want for the someone else to be happy, no matter what happens to you.

It's not the cause. It's only the effect and how you deal with it.

1 comment:

Nirupam said...

Truly said.
These moments can be understood if someone has undergone.Sometimes lots of questions are there in mind but no one shows the white rabbit.
Sometimes it seems, the feeling of being together all the time is responsible, sometimes love, sometimes the habit, sometimes the obsession.
Feelings are great in themselves. they bring all the good moments nice smiles, but like a Trojan, expectations, dreams, farsighted perceptions takes the back door and enters silently.There's a thin line when they overcome those wonderful feelings.If things finds the desired path, its great, if not.
well, things become bit complicated.even thousand times we ask ourselves, what is it. of course we wanted to keep our loved one happy. if we see the smile of the other half we'd be happy for sure.but our subconscious mind will haunt us, why i couldn't be the reason?
the question is never answered, even if we get one, that is the farthest one from reality for sure.
Every moments we spend brings the promise of thousands clone of that.
but we forget every time we get one clone we loose one at the same time. Becoze, they are finite.
This is the irony.
Someone said if you miss someone, if it bothers you that this much time you are not having that with you, think you are one day closer to the next encounter.
This gives bit relief but, reality is bit random in nature(at least it appears, as long as we are unable to find the pattern).
above all, we can not overcome the basic rules of matrix, until we find the white rabbit.